to get the membership form. Turn out the clerk there is a friend, one of my mates ex-girlfriend. Talked, while waiting for the form, looked around. Filled in the form and applied for life membership.
Learnt that someone must declare that I have glaucoma, and fill another form with the doctors certification. Will do that when I see the eye specialist in June. The look in the staff eyes, sad.. and I must admit that I felt very cold, weak, and just depressed... my whole body felt cold, shiver and just sad. What more when they said that most people they know with glaucoma turn blind in a very short time. They also told me of a Unimas staff from a few years back that had glaucoma, and tried to kill himself .. 3 attempts, unsuccessful, and now he is continuing on with his life.I know I am depressed, but hope that I wont lose my job and that with my wife by my side, we can still work together. My Dean said that he will still retain me, so now to make sure I can function when blind. I know that I can still do research, get someone to draft what I want to be done, read to me the papers, and I know I can supervise students, maybe a limited number.. not so sure of teaching, but if briefed and prodded by someone who can see the slides, things like strategic marketing and research methodology is second nature to me and I can easily talk about it. Updating myself with latest knowledge will be difficult but guess nothing is or will be easy for me.
My wife cried.. I didn't, but I really felt like crying when we walked out of the building.
Life goes on.
Ernest
9 comments:
I'm sorry to learn about this hard fact. Do be strong. Life goes on!
Cheer up, I know it will be hard, but please try, life will be much more meaningful.... and God Bless you sir...
Sir, i visited the center once, they even teach those special people how to use computer... suprisingly, the computer are same as normal ppl computer, the only different is they all use short cut key... which i think they more expert than normal people... Sir, i believe everything happen with good reason behind it. ALL the best sir... ^^
Nothing is impossible,but i know you can do it. Don't count the days make the days count.
Believe that your life is worth living and your beliefs will help create the fact.
Jessica Tuntun
Sir, be brave. I'm sure u won't be easily give up and no big worries abt that as long as we carry our life happily and be optimistic. For the rest, we let the God lend us His caring hand to support us.
Cheers.
Thanks all. I appreciate the concern.
There always the bright side on the other side of the tunnel. :)
hie prof, trust on Jesus Christ pray to mother Mary. have confident on urself. i will also pray 4 u...
" He who find his life wil lose it, n He he who loses his life for my sake wil find it" Matthew 10:39
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